“The joy of the Lord is my strength”, where to begin, this road I’m traveling is about change and seeing the world differently. I am searching for a full and abundant life walking and serving my Savior. I want to know Him in an intimate and personal way that changes everything I see and think and my purpose of sharing my story is just encase I am not walking alone. Through the years I felt like I am the only one on this road and that maybe everyone else just woke up one morning and had arrived at this place of serenity that I don’t understand. I have to tell you that I have recently taken a personality test (actually 3 different ones hoping for a different outcome) according to the tests I am a INTJ-T Architect for anyone that knows what that is… What I discovered in reading about this stellar personality is that I fit the mold almost perfectly. To give you a little insight I actually called a friend and told her that as far as I can tell my only redeeming quality is that I will tell you I am a bitch before you have to figure it out!!! Sorry for that but I have no idea how to sugar coat that! I actually felt defeated and hopeless even while I read the characteristics of this personality my mind began to relive all the past where I allowed the dark side of INTJ-T Architect to be the dominate part of me. My God is so gracious and patient with me and His constant reminders that He is enough gives me “the peace that passes all understanding”; this morning He reminded me that I am forever changed and He created all things even my rare personality.
13 For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. a Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. 17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! 18 If I would count them, they are more than the sand.
I awake, and I am still with you.
God is painting a beautiful picture of Salvation and love with the lives of His people and it has many colors, depths, shapes, sizes and is so bright and glorious that I am thankful to just be a brush stroke in such a masterpiece. “Let your light so shine before all men” I may look at the world differently but God has a plan for that and I am thankful.