Begin Again

So in my wanderings this topic of renewing the mind just continues to come up. I am an old married woman of a short 2 weeks now and I am amazed that I can be this old and know so little about relationships and life in general. Every step of every day is a learning process, what is important and what is not. I have spent some time looking through the past and trying to let go of the ugly things and deal with hurts and pains I thought I would never get over but today I have hope. I still believe history is to be learned from but not to be lived in. This is the thing, life has changed and for the better and yet I find myself looking for the motive behind actions, sometimes even thinking this can’t be true and the awful is coming but God’s word says He only works good for those who love Him. Do I believe that? Think on these things, what so ever is:  lovely, pure, of good report, and so on, and that is something I believe has to be practiced. It has rained here more this year than I can ever remember, this country is in such a struggle with division and politics and yet there is so much beauty all around me. For me it comes down to living in the moment and holding on the little things that I don’t pay much attention to. Things like; saying hi to a stranger, a smile from someone I see often but never real meet, a giggle from my grandsons, or just having someone to hug every day. There is so much suffering and ugliness in this world that it is easy to live in fear and sadness but God has filled me with hope, joy, peace, and love all to be given away freely because that is how I received it. I still cry when I miss my sister or father, I worry for my sons and their families, I am afraid for my brothers that are in bad health but I have no control over any of those things and today is the only life God has given me so I want to practice renewing my mind. I want to look for the good things around me and focus on the blessings I have been given. Psalm 139: O LORD, you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue behold, O LORD, you know it altogether. You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. I want more than I have had, a different ending from the beginning, and it begins with the renewing of my mind. I don’t have to control what happens around me just trust Philippians 1: And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ. I am so blessed and I am His!

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